What is being alive anyway?

Today has been a very hard day. I am operating on almost no sleep and find that my mind does not work all that well, (duh).



So I exist, trying to get a studio open and my workshops up and running, but find I really do not care. In fact the one thing that has motivated me may not really be there anymore. So why keep up the fight? Why keep trying to make a difference? Why not just lie down and sleep, for a long, long, long time?

I don't know.

I am alive, but why?

I guess it is so that I can make a lovely work of art someday.

Wow! So what?

Brian